Wednesday, September 13, 2006
In quantum mechanics, a probability amplitude is a complex-valued function that describes an uncertain or unknown quantity.
Jian taught me a quantum mechanic equation which describes my predicament exactly: the state of being both here and not here at the same time.
I just got an interview from UNSW for medicine. It was my dream last year. and well, although it still is quite a dream to do med at UNSW, coming to Dunedin has made me reconsider that.
this year here has been simply exhilarating. exhilarating. what a weird word, but i think that kinda sums it up - all the good and the bad - i have had my fun; i have learnt my lessons (or so i'd like to think).
it's not the place, i'd like to emphasize, but the people; the friends i have found. each one so unique, so special, so dear, has just touched my life in ways i can't find the words to describe... this year will be well cherished, wherever i may be.
don't ask me where i want to be, for my heart lies torn inbetween. and like the "ditch" that seperates sydney and dunedin, it runs deep...
... but only as deep as God would allow. and in this decision, as with all others, i guess i only want God's will to be done, whatever it may be.
i should be content with what i have recieved, and i guess i'm learning... all that i have has only come by the grace of God, and what am i to ask for more?
i just pray that when God closes doors, if He should, that He would open more...
it's a half-half probability between the two, but in this time, i just wanna soak up the feeling of being at two places at once. i love you both.
P.S. i don't exactly know why i'm writing about this at this time... in all honesty, it's not affecting me that much at this point... i think x(
dennis at 3:10 PM
0 prayers for dennis
